What do you consider your biggest stressors/thieves of wellbeing?

Why is this the case?
Why/how does this happen?
When does this happen?
Where does this happen?
With whom does this happen?

 

I tried to map my stress levels throughout the week and realised that my stressors have a pattern according to my work schedule.

I had my alarm pin point and consciously make me realise what the stress I am going through at three times of the day.

On Tuesday I realised that I was pretty relaxed as I did not have any deadlines to meet so at all three times of the day I was pretty calm and composed. The stressor monitor alarm did not remind me of any particular reason that I was stressed about.

I was stressed on Wednesday and Thursday as there were a lot of submissions due . Both these days at all three times of the day I realised that my mind was filed with thoughts of the finals approaching and the fact that I need to figure out and envision many of my projects before I can feel relaxed. My mind was filled with anxiety. On Friday I was panicking because I was trying to figure the workload that I had to complete in a week.
I also realised that I have a cycle of thoughts going around in my mind when I am in the Subway on all days. I keep wondering about thoughts questioning the purpose of my existence.
I figured out this happens because of the setting of the underground subway.You cannot figure out what time of the day it is and it feels like you have been sitting in the train for ages and it creates a feeling of disorientation and time travel. My subway journey reminds me of John Greene’s quote – “You spend your whole life stuck in the labyrinth,thinking about how you’ll escape one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going,but you never do it.You just use the future to escape the present.
I tried talking to people and few of them said that they also feel disoriented while going through the subways. The others said that they love to sleep in the subways and feel relaxed.
I realised that I unconsciously, I am always stressed in subways and I never really made an effort to find out ways to work on this issue.
I was pretty relaxed on Saturday and Sunday as I did not have any immediate tensions and at all three times of the day when my stress monitor alarm rang, I told myself that I kept reminding myself that stressing will not help me but I just need to have faith that everything will fall into place.
So I figured there is a cyclic process in my stressors. I would definitely like to practice various forms of meditation, that foster positive experiences to help me not stress on the same reasons every week.

I tried to look at few mobile applications and realised that most them have a big learning curve . I downloaded calm and headspace and then realised that I don’t want guidelines or tasks assigned which will in turn result into more things to do. I already have millions of thoughts swimming in my head and I don’t want to spend energy and efforts in achieving mindfulness with the help of these tools.

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And then I found the application Pause! The simplicity of using the application appealed to me the most. The fact of just following by tapping on a dot and not doing anything else encouraged me to play the game and calm myself. It really helped me in regaining my focus .The warm colours were revolving in an aura. I closed my eyes and I could visualise the aura of light in my head and when I opened my eyes my screen was covered in shades of yellow,red and orange. I felt a sense of achievement after opening my eyes. I never though this simple technique would be a mind opener and help in feeling lighter. The cool colours were more soothing than the warm colours. It would be really fun to choose your own color in the application, that way there would be no triggers by color, since this app is designed to relieve stress and anxiety but not cause it.  I loved the way the entire screen got filled up with a huge blob of teal with rings of blues and greens.

This application follows the principles of Tai chai.

Tai chi is an ancient Chinese tradition that, today, is practiced as a graceful form of exercise. It involves a series of movements performed in a slow, focused manner and accompanied by deep breathing.

It is often described as meditation in motion, and promotes serenity through gentle, flowing movements.

I am now interested in studying old traditional forms of meditation practiced in different countries and how these techniques can be used metaphorically with technology to achieve mindfulness. The colour psychology and its application in mindfulness is also what interests me.

How to achieve the higher state of consciousness is what I have been wondering the entire week and still seems like a huge unsolved question in my head.